My friend Ian has the philosophy that if you encounter someone a few times, you should just introduce yourself to them. I like this idea. I actually love this idea. But a few things held me back from just introducing myself to this girl, namely that:
- During the day time, I tend to be dressed like a chav, in running shoes, black tracksuit bottoms, a black polo-neck, and a black waterproof coat. The reason for this is that this outfit is my work outfit, and I do not have chance to go home and change before I have to start earning my crust (although I would make the effort if I was getting paid in something other than crust. Very few places accept it as currency). This is a bit rubbish! Sometimes I will walk past coolly dressed folk and smile, as if to say, "Hey, check us out!" and they'll just look at me kind of confused, and I realise that what I'm wearing is not worthy of a smile from a stranger. It makes me feel like I'm in disguise, and makes me wary of approaching people I may otherwise approach.
- I do have to get that train every week, so if I freak her out, I could get banned from the train? I dunno, I'm not sure what I could do for things to go that badly, but I do frequently surprise myself with how badly I can make a situation go! Once a girl said to me, "Give me a call if you want to meet up for sex sometime," and I somehow managed to make that go sour. She wasn't interested in chit-chat, all I had to do was call and say, "Now." But no, I managed to talk myself out of it!
- Again, I have to get on that train every week, so if our conversation ends up being really tedious, possibly I am resigning myself to that every week!
Yes, so possibly I'll just not bother. Although it was Leap Day today, so maybe, if I'd plucked up the courage to talk to her, she would have proposed to me!
Hmm... possibly I've gotten off lucky, as I really can't afford to get married right now. Gosh, she's going to be heart broken! Poor girl.
Anyway, welcome to my daydream/your nightmare!